…as the old saying goes. How true it is, when trying to recover from cancer treatment.
I’m very lucky to say I am cured of the particular type I had. But it’s also a really frustrating period too. My body desperately needs reconditioning. I know I am going to have to do a lot of physical work in order to get my stamina back.
It is frustrating because I feel ready to dive into this blogging thing and really making a go of working online. I often get sidelined by fatigue, and also overwhelming emotion. You would think I would be joyful most of the time, but I’m finding that that is just not possible.
So I’m trying to relax a bit more again, and take it easy. I will read some helpful magazines. I will do art. I will not beat myself up for not doing the work (yet) that I want to do.
I am taking my time to figure out what my next steps are.
I am enrolled in a variety of online courses, which I am working through slowly. It is so refreshing to learn something new, and feel excited about implementing the lessons.
I have read all different types of blogs for years and feel pretty comfortable with what I like and don’t like. I think I can do this.
After yet another lay-off from the corporate world, making my dreams a reality is now first and foremost. Mostly I dream of being financially abundant and not have to worry about the state of the company I work for. I want to be able to take care of my family, travel modestly (including visiting family members more regularly) and contribute adequately to the life my partner and I are building together.
After this past year, and being treated for breast cancer, putting a priority on health and reducing my stress is also paramount. My back-to-health plan includes going after what I love doing. Financial security is so important when it comes to major illness. It’s just one less thing you have to worry about at the most difficult time in your life.
It’s time to share what my experience and lessons have been in hopes that I can help someone else. I’m looking forward to the possibilities.
I have grand plans. I am constantly dreaming of a life where I am following my calling of writing and sharing through those optical fibres that connect me to the Internet. I dream of being responsible for the way I make my living.
When I’m doing something else, and dreaming of these plans, even planning these plans, it seems easy. Actually sitting down and starting, of course, is the hard part. Putting myself out there opens me up (my first thought) to criticism. Getting over that fear is definitely a hurdle. However, I also know that putting myself out there can make it possible for much more positive reinforcement to get in. The right people will find me if I’m sharing what I know and love.
Everything you want, is on the other side of fear. – Jack Canfield
I have read plenty of books, taken many courses, listened and reflected, listened and reflected, to how I might go about achieving all this. These grand plans.
Well, it’s time to start. Perfection is the killer of so many great things. If we always waited for everything to be perfect before we started, life would pass us by. So I’m starting where I am.
Let’s see where that takes me.